CHOICES..!!

Today...badan aku rasa mau tumbang..tulang temulang rasa mau patah.so tired diz few days..just goin back from general cleaning d house where i'm going to stay after diz.not really feel ok to move in dat house..but no choice la..my dad ask me to move in as soon as possible..but i wish i can start to stay there in November..now is bulan surut..not so gud la for me to move in during diz period of time..fengshui not so gud.hihi...dunno when i start to believe in fengshui...

Next week..Pesta Sungai Krian.Hv to incharge for the 'Pameran'...pls..do come ok!!Actually..i m totally 100% dun have any idea bout it..just do wat ppl ask me 2 do.Shut my mouth,start the engine,and do my job..dats the better thing for me to do..n wish dat everything is under control.

Ohya,i got one new job offer..but still cant decide whether want to accept it or not.lot of things for me to think about..every steps dat i make will effect my life n future..so hv to think carefully n try to make a decision..(haiyooo...gue lembab gila when it comes to DECISION MAKING!!). ME really dont know what to do right now. Dear God,please help me..lead me the way.


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Life must Go oN..!!

23rd October 2009...

Few more days 2 go b4 i move 2 a new house...its not an ez things 4 me 2 leave diz house..lot of memories,lot of tragedy n incidents...not feel ok to move from diz house.but, its d only solution dat i got..
its life!!new environment,new surrounding..n once u felt comfortable with it..u hv 2 go n leave it behind to start the circle again.Lot of thingz 2 b pack..n i havent start yet!so so lazy me...
Office's life??? Hmm,sometimes so busy n sometimes i really stress of not doing anything..when its busy,me even dun hv enough time to eat,talk but its me lorrr, smile still at my face!! cant leave the smile behind..

Never fRowN eVen iF yOu’Re sAd coz u'll neVer kn0w wHo iZ faLLing in LoVe wiTh ur sMiLe.

To d w0rLd maYbe U r 1 peRson ~ buT to 1 perSon, maYbe u'Re d worLd...

i do believe in it...so, i have to smile lorh no matter what happen in my life..still hv to b strong even i'm weak.. still hv 2 win even i know dat i might b lose..still hv to strike for d better life.. but i know..all i need right now was U.. no matter who u r..but during this situation,i need u to be my courage, to lead me, care for me, to tell me wat iz wrong n wat iz right..need u to support me n lead me.. huhu..i need u dear frenz...

Oh iBaN...!!

haha...malu to tell people dat i m iban...lot of ibanz language dat i dunno the meaning of its..always being laughed by ppl here.kihkih...never mind,slow n steady to learn it..

kibut~i totally dunno wat d meaning of it.hehe,ppl at here owest use it to save water.maybe can be say as bottle or some sort of container to put water.

miluk~haha,funny story bout it.my frenz say it was a worm dat can b eat..but they make joke bout it as a something...(cant tell)

mamban,serpan2....hihi,forgot d meaning of it...

see,still a lot of thing for me to learn bout iban language.never mind, as long as i m still here, i still got a lot of time to learn..caiyo caiyo!! Never give up!!

The latest pict at KL..Semenanjung!!

9th October 2009

My flight to KL from Sibu airport..have to go to Damansara due to PPKB's form.2 boxes equal to 45kgs..Thank God dat i'm not being charged for it..haha,thanx to dat 2 guys also for not charging me.Sometimes it was gud enough to b a girl..just flirt but dun over d limit.. always do hv a respect to urself.hihi...

Not sabar to meet all my frenz..my sis,my niece n nephew..lot of places dat i wish to go..but for sure for real, will not hv enough time for it.staying at shah alam at my ol'house...cant wait to meet my ex-housemate.hihi..really rindu dat 2 girls. haiyoo...Miss NAM also..and Noella, i miss you~will take u out 2nite..b prepare girl.Suprise!!!

mmuaxxxx!!

hehe..the new me!! not so new lah!!!

09.09.09

09.09.09

dulu aku penah pasang angan2 nk kahwin tarikh ni..tp sampai skrg aku still terkial2 nk cari calon..yalah,xkan la nk kawin sorg2 right?its ok lah..aku tunda ke tahun depan je lah..10.10.10...kebetulan 10.10 is my mum's birthday..so if jadi n sempat cr calon..kira dh ngam sgt lah..haha.kawan2 aku cakap aku dh desperate sgt cari calon semata2 nk capai angan2 ni.its ok...desperate pun desperate lah..haha.yang penting tym tarikh tu, u all dtg kt function aku. kihkih..so desperate!!

pagi ni also confirm kecoh satu ofis dgn kad kawin my frens with satu mamat satu ofis dgn we all..kira couple satu bumbung lah ni..xtau lah betul couple or not...but doa2 betul lah ya..kad kawin ni kitorang yg reka sendiri..saja nk kenakan diorang..kebetulan, boss pun xmasuk ofis,so elok sgt lah kalau nk buat dajal..haha,maklum la,if kucing xde,so,tikus2 naik tanduk..haha..xsabar nk tunggu ari siang.Bren and Jame...haha,standbyu lah utk dikenakan..

Hmm..2moro morning, i need to go to Nyabor..inspection at there with semut2.haha,seems me d only girl in Vector Control...so they called me 'Ratu Semut'...kurang asam!! haha...better ratu semut...jgn la ratu nyamuk..dah lama aku x g inspection with they all..so busy with jobs an Admin Section sampai aku byk abaikan tugas di Public Health Section.susah juga kerja tangkap 2 tugas...Padan muka aku!!

Ohya,hampir tiap petang i need 2 go Bazaar Rammadhan..inspection at there also..tp dh hampir sebulan inspection...yg aku tau,bli kuih,then balik ofis..xpenah pun betul2 jln tugas pastikan kebersihan or gerai2 semua OK!! hikhik...nasib lahh...

Hmm..k lah,need 2 go now.chow!!! Mmuaxxxx!!!

MDS

SABAN with FreNzz...

We worK, we LauGh, wE taLk, and We MesS!!

Thanx For MakIng my Life bcOmE morE easier and LeSs of stRess....

yooohooooooooo!!!

Ohaiyyyooo...wassupp!! hmm, apa jadi now ho? Long time not update diz blog. byk crita but dunno which one to story..huhu,ohya, now i'm staying at saratok.with my dad..but not in d same house lar..sumtym me feel so scared staying alone at home,scared of ppl who may break in to the house..scared of Momok..(anjing selalu mnyalak tgh2 mlm oo..).But,still dun want 2 move out from dat house..hihi.
Okay lah...my job at here wuz so2 byk..Kursus anywhere and anywhen..sumtym juz come 2 d office on Friday coz monday till Thursday got Kursus..Almost every week..Strategic Planning, Kursus Anugerah Ketua Menteri, Kursus Kecemerlangan Prestasi and after this hv to incharge for Kursus KPI.Haiyooo!!Hmm,so far diz place was OK..Totally ok..ppl here was so nice.not all of them but maybe most of them..
K lah..will update again next time,actually i want to stiory bout something else,but dunno why i type bout my job here...BoNGok!!haha.k,daaaaaaa~~~ muaxxxx!!

The Things I Love About You....

I love the way you make me laugh

I love the way you make me cry

I love you when you're angry

I love you when you're sad

I love you when you're glad

I love you truly

I love you deeply

Ever since the day I let you meet me

I missed you when you left

I miss you now more than ever

Making a mistake that I regret

Hoping that you are a forgiver

Without you, my life is strife

But now I ask for a second chance

Be with me and start a life

Together forever, an eternal dance

I wait for you as the days go by

My love is growing inch by inch

I cannot wait to see you again

But I wait for you, and your warm kiss

I love you

I'm sorry....!!

i'm sorry i hurt you

i'm sorry i made you mad

i'm sorry i lied

i'm sorry i treated you bad

i'm sorry i let you go

now i'm the one feeling bad

now if you dont except my apology then that's okay

i just wanted to let you know

i still luv u and you'll allways be my love

miss......

hmmm....here i go again.lama dh x type anythin in this blog.huhu..so many things happen..for the update. im working in the government sector ryte now..so, many things changed.feeling more relax and less of stress...but still not too sure bout it.its still too early to judge everything.anything can be happen in future..but still wish that i can handle everything.huhu,but one thing dat i'm 100% sure,i wish dat i can be there..a place dat i belong to.i wish to b with u..i miss you..

Seaweed~

Hmm....i cant sleep ryte now..my stomach killed me!! it hurts me and i wish i can do sumthing bout it. hmm..2 days to go before i left this place!! feelin so sad n confused!! i dont want to left this place!! im happy here.my day was full of lauhter, jokes and stupidity..and a bit bullshit thing..but i love all the bullshit and funny jokes here. its become a part of me..even sumtymes i cried, feeling hurt and emotional..but at least i can feel the love. I should ask for nothing than this.. i discover the real me!! i learnt a lot bout love and friendships!! And now, i wish i can come back here again. I really love this place bcoz i always hv seaweed 2 be by my side!!

S.O.S : help me!!~

Adusss!! can't sleep lorrr... a lot of thingz for me 2 think about...so many thingz need 2 b settle.. aiyoo, how to stand a life lyke diz?? My convocation fee still not being paid.. hard to find a Bank Islam here, so far far away!! i wish there would b sumone ~ willing to help me.. but it seems nobody can!! so sedihh larr.. then hv to find a gud n perfect tyme to 'date' a doctor..heeeheee. better make it soon!!

Then, dunno who can fetch me up at the LCCT!! I'm goin back to Shah Alam diz 20th May... Wednesday morning!! Sumtym felt lyke dun want to go back anymore..so many thingz happened not as wat it should be..some sort of traumatic and~~!!

Hmm, also feelin dizzy when i think how should i pack my stuff and send it up there..ermm, to Perak i mean.. a lot of thingz for me to move!! Don't think i can drive all the way to Perak anymore. Plus, dun think one trip will be enough to move all the stuff.. a trip of 2 maybe awwkayyy.. ya lar..keta kecik lor!! but as mention, i cant drive pegi balik..pegi balik like dat. so tired!! huhu...

My Convocation will be held on 29th May.. 1 more thing dat i should taken care of.. dunno how to goin there on 29th, so malass to drive in the UiTM area and looking for a parking spot.. wish that sumbody can drive me there.. haiyoo...but seem dat all of my fwenz graduate with me.. and those who didn't...they should be oledi 'balik kampung' dat tyme..

Aaiiyooo!! my life jadi KraZiiiEEee if owest lyke diz!! i pray dat the angel will fallin down here to help me!! or wish maybe there would be a hero to offer me a heLp..haha, but i dun think so!! CaNonnggg.......heLp mE!!!!

Owhh ya..almost forgot to mention.. i cut my hair SHORT... really really short!! Hihi..but easy to maintain!! dun have to comb it...
~guna tangan pun boLehHH..!!~

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What Men Want From Women

Actually, it's pretty simple. Deep inside the heart of every man is a secret wish to be trusted. How many times have men said to their wife/girlfriend, "If you would just trust me." Many men wonder why it seems so difficult for their wives to do something so seemingly simple. The answer stems from the physiological differences between the sexes.

It begins at birth when little boys are given a distinct physical advantage over little girls by having higher levels of testosterone. With testosterone comes the physical strength to both defend themselves from danger and/or run away from a threat.

Most little girls don't have that ability. They don't have the strength to defend themselves in a physically fight when they feel threatened. If a boy trusts someone who in turn hurts them, they can always defend themselves physically (or try to).

Little girls don't have that physical option of power. Since a person can only trust from a position of strength, those same little girls will grow up into women who naturally have a more difficult time "trusting" when they feel vulnerable.

So men, when you ask the woman of your choice to simply "trust you," it's not that she can't, she's just more vulnerable than you. If you want her to trust you, she needs something that will help develop that trust.

Perhaps even a tool or gesture that she can "count on " until that trust with you is established. Thankfully this tool already exist and is known every woman. What cultivates trust in a woman is a man who consistently keeps his word. Making a promise is meaningless if there is no follow through.

A woman needs to SEE her man fulfill his promises because seeing is always more powerful than hearing. Allow me to illustrate.

Men, when the woman you love sees your words lining up with your actions, trust will naturally follow. When you don't keep your word it causes your wife/girlfriend to become fearful. From her perspective, she has entrusted you with her Heart and WANTS to trust you. She simply needs your help in giving you what you want.

pLeaSe unDeRstaNd!!!

Dear Guys,

Please note what your partner says, to avoid stepping on to any “landmines”.

(1) Fine :

This is the word women use to end an argument when they are right and you need to shut up. Anything said after that is the start of a new argument.

(2) Five Minutes :

If she is getting dressed, this means a half an hour. Five minutes is only five minutes if you have just been given five more minutes to watch the game before helping around the house.

(3) Nothing :

This is the calm before the storm. This means something, and you should be on your toes. Arguments that begin with nothing usually end in fine.

(4) Go Ahead :

This is a dare, not permission. Don't Do It!

(5) Loud Sigh :

This is actually a word, but is a non-verbal statement often misunderstood by men. A loud sigh means she thinks you are an idiot and wonders why she is wasting her time standing here and arguing with you about nothing. (Refer back to # 3 for the meaning of nothing)

(6) That's Okay :

This is one of the most dangerous statements a women can make to a man. That's okay means she wants to think long and hard before deciding how and when you will pay for your mistake.

(7) Thanks :

A woman is thanking you, do not question, or faint. Just say you're welcome. (I want to add in a clause here - This is true, unless she says 'Thanks a lot' - that is PURE sarcasm and she is not thanking you at all. DO NOT say 'you're welcome' . that will bring on a 'whatever').

(8) Whatever :

Is a woman's way of saying F--- YOU!

(9) Don't worry about it, I got it :

Another dangerous statement, meaning this is something that a woman has told a man to do several times, but is now doing it herself. This will later result in a man asking 'What's wrong?' For the woman's response refer to # 3.

* Tell the men you know, to warn them about arguments they can avoid if they remember the terminology.

* Let all the women you know, they surely smiles and laugh, cause they know it's true!!!

Women's Secret

Think
You
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1. When a woman said that she is sad but didn’t shed a tear, she’s actually crying inside.
2. When a woman didn’t care less about you after a raging quarrel between the two of you, the next step you should take is to give her some time to cool it off before apologizing and start a normal conversation. However, don’t leave her for too long cause it can even get worse since it’s like you don’t even care. Just a few hours would do. There’s nothing to lose (especially your ego and pride) if you really love her.
3. It is rather difficult for a woman to hate the flaws of the person whom she loves most, even when she knows there’s quite a number.
4. When she falls in love with a man, that man will always be on her mind, even when she’s going out with another male friend.
5. When the she loves look at her in the eyes deeply and intense, she’ll surely melt like a chocolate on a hot boiler!
6. Women loves compliments, but sometimes they just don’t know how to react to them.
7. If a woman who you’ve declined of her feelings is avoiding you, let her be and if you still want to be friends, you can try talking to her slowly and start light.
8. Most women like to bare their feelings whether it’s through music, writings, paintings and poetry. It’s the easiest way for them to expose of what they feel.
9. Never tell a woman she’s useless.
10. Being too serious can kill off a woman’s mood.
11. When a woman receive a positive respond from a person that she likes - like a simple phone call, she’ll probably act it cool and shows not much of an interest but as puts down the phone, she’ll be screaming out of joy of thought that she’s the happiest woman alive! (Putting our ego aside, this is rather true right?)
12. A smile can meant a thousand things for a woman, so if you’re not some kind of celebrities, don’t just smile happily and shiningly out of nowhere and no reason.
13. If you like a woman, maybe you should start by being her friend in the first place.
14. If a woman gives you a million reasons for not being able to go out with you, it’s obvious that she’s not into you at all.
15. Never assume too much. Ask her for yourself what’s playing in her mind! (Assuming -this is the most typical habit of men)
16. Sometimes, when a woman falls in love, she’ll be puzzling herself with the question as to why she didn’t meet you earlier.
17. Yes, she ‘s probably still remembers her ex face but if you are her lover, you’ll be at her heart and mind always.
18. A simple ‘hi’ from you would probably cheer up her day!
19. This is quite true, but only her one and only good friend would probably know of how she feels and what she has been through.
20. Women hate it when a men trying to get close to them because they trying to get a date with the prettiest one among her list of friends.
21. For most women, love simply means loyalty, caring of each other, honesty and happiness without any compromises.
22. A woman’s crucial weapon is her tears!
23. Every women dreams of a guy who could love her with all of his heart.
24. Women love occasional surprises! (That should be appropriate with time, place and condition too, so be wise guys!)
25. Most women fall in love easily with a man who cares about them more than they do care about themselves.
26. By right, it is easy to win a woman’s heart because all they ever want is probably to be love dearly and unconditionally.